Well kids it's been quite awhile since I've updated so let's see if I can catch you up as to what's been happening. Moved in on the 27th and got our room set up which is uber cool! Classes started and already have tons of reading to do in them..boo. Amanda and I have been hanging out which is loads of fun! I'm super glad we're roommates.  It's really quite amazing how much alike we are. I love our late night talks before bed it's great to be able to have someone to talk to and understands what you're going through. Well this post was short sweet and to the point but what can I say my life is not that interesting. Good night and sweet dreams!

   I wonder that if life turned out the way we expected would we be as grateful for what we have, as determined to make it that next time, or even live in the moment? No we wouldn't. I saw a movie tonight Little Black Book and in it the main character battles with herself and the way she thinks life is and how it really turns out the opposite. There's a line in the movie that says "It's amazing where life will take you when you let go of the wheel". I try so hard to let go of the wheel and let God have complete control but sometimes it's hard.

I put an effort with Aaron and I was rewarded with 2 dates and a friendship. I wanted so bad for this to work but I also kept reminding myself it might not work too. Since it is so close to school I had to call tonight and find out so I asked and was told "I had a lot of fun but I still keep coming back to the age issue, and I think you're a little young for me." I told him I understand and we at least had to try and see. I also told him I hoped we could stay in touch and hang out b/c I enjoy his company and he said same thing.  Then I got off the phone and cried for a few minutes. Now I'm ok.

I'm not mad because he was honest. I'm hurt but I put myself in that position to be hurt. This hurts a bit because I've wondered for a year and 1/2 what could have been and now at least I know. So for now I'm cutting off the option of us dating and just focusing on being friends. If something comes up in the future..awesome and if not then that's awesome too.

I've been burned in relationships before and at least it wasn't one and I didn't get burned. I totally respect the fact he has a problem with the age difference and that he told me. I chalk this one up to experience, learn and move on. My prince is out there. I just got to be patient and let God have the steering wheel.

Hello all! The date was a success! We went out to eat and talked about everything and I wasn't nervous. We laughed and had a great time, the conversation went 50/50 and I felt at ease to be myself. After we ate we ran to Hasting's to kill some time before  the movie and we walked around and joked. Then we got back in the car and I couldn't get the seat belt to work! It was locked up so I told him just not to tell his sister I broke her car but we finally got it fixed after the movie. He had to unlock it..just the magic touch! When he dropped me off he walked me to the front door and I thanked him  and told him I had a great time, he did too. Then he hugged me and we decided we're going to go out again!!! Apparently the maturity level isn't an issue. Now that everyone is caught up I have a question. What is a good idea for a second date?

Wendy I miss you too!! How was Louisiana? Well I'm going to bond with the family. See y'all in a few weeks!

Well to say the least I'm feeling much better about things since I last wrote. Mom is good and the guy is going to have to pay for damages and all is well in the Carpenter household. And T-Minus 22 hours till my date. I have to get all my nervousness out now b/c I'm not going to have time tomorrow which is a good thing. I get to hang with family, then babysit till 7, then haul tail back to my house to get ready for my date at 8. I'm just really nervous b/c I really like this guy and I haven't been on a date in forever it seems. Aaron said he's very excited about this date he's just worried about the age difference but not really that as much as the maturity difference. Shaun told him, "I'm not saying this b/c she's my best friend but she's very mature for her age." and Aaron said he can tell but we'll see how Saturday goes. I'm just going to be myself and hope for the best. I've waited a year for this and now it all comes down to about 4 hours tomorrow night. 4 hours for both of us to make a decision on whether this is going to be something we take further. No pressure at all. Yeah right. Lots o hugs!